Various moments you push back, you try to forget, but every once and a while somebody says a sentence, a word, a quote- that brings that obscured memory jaggedly back into place. I wish I could tell you how terrifying and yet warm it was to feel your eyes when last night that moment was mine. I picked up my glass of water and turned my face away trying desperately to stay afloat in the memory and expecting nobody to notice, but there they were; your eyes, searching me for some shape of a memorandum. But I didn’t give you anything, though I wish I had. I want so badly to communicate how you touched me in that fragment of an instant with just a glance, but I couldn’t even look back at you to release you of your momentary worry. Because if I did that I would be acknowledging that [your eyes] were ever resting on me in the first place, and that I had shared such a slice of a secret that would leave me so vulnerable. And because I am not as good as you, and because I am a coward.

So we watched Beowulf and had a blast- but before we even got settled into the movie our moods were giddy ones.  I thought I would share this video with you before I put myself to bed and inform you that my second scarf was completed tonight and given to little Miss Mallory.

There’s this ridiculously simplistic, yet adorable and creative group on flickr called “Where I Stand” that I joined and this is my first submission.  The point is to stand with your feet together and take a shot of your legs (some or all) and your feet, showing where you happen to be at that moment when the shutter closed.  Sounds simple, right?  Well, it’s amazing to see what some people have done with it- standing in front of a toliet, on glass floors, in a puddle.  It’s just really great!

And so you know my camera explorations are going wonderfully, Tyler even had some fun checking it out with me last night, and I actually brought the manual to work today so I could review it and explore.  It’s a disastrous form of distraction, as I still have yet to finish my NaNo outline, and officially have less than a week before it starts.

This film is one word: raw.  There isn’t really a plot even to the movie, but more a glimpse at this family’s life and who is immediately involved with them.  But don’t let this stop you!  I know there are some of you that are turned off by “family” dramas, but this is amazing.  The dialogue is it’s strong point as almost everyone involved is a scholar of some sort, leaving the comments, quirks, and humor all very sophisticated.  But no matter what words or references they use to decorate their lives with, there is still an amazing amount of raw emotion here. The characters all full, lush and real and it was an amazing adaptation of Anton Chekhov’s play, “The Three Sisters.”  I would recommend it to anyone who enjoyed “Closer” or “The Squid and the Whale”.