I wasn’t feeling well and I remember getting up to get a glass of water. I remember stretching on my tippy toes to see if I could reach a plastic cup. But I was too tired to keep stretching so I settled for the glass on the bottom shelf. I stood infront of the refrigerator and wondered if I wanted milk or water. Then I remember deciding I wanted ice. And then the next thing I remember is Tyler holding me and stroking my hair. And then I realized how much pain I was in. And that I was lying in glass. And I guess the site of the glass made my leg sting and I realized how much it hurt. I do not remember falling. I do not remember the glass crushing under my body. But I do remember crying when I woke, shaking, asking for Jei and my mom while holding onto Tyler like he was the only real substance in my life at that moment. The only thing that could keep me steady. I was scared.

I rode in the ambulance the entire way there, they plugged my arm with an IV, and when they wheeled me down halls to the emergency room Tyler was still there holding my hand. My mother was waiting next to the open door of my soon-to-be room and it was such a relief to see her. There were a few warm blankets, an EKG, and a bunch of blood was taken (painfully). I don’t remember much else except that once I calmed down I felt better. It took several hours to get out of there- Jei was stuck at work and I was supposed to be his ride. Rue came to see me, of course, and he, Tyler and my mother and I talked to pass the time. Some other visitors came, for which I was grateful, but I was very tired. So many times I heard, “So, what happened?”

I was very tired.
I am still very tired.
And my hip hurts.
My hip really fucking hurts.

But thank you, Tyler. Thank you, Rue. Thank you, Mother. Thank you, Jei.
I love you all dearly.
And when they said, “Are these your family members?”
I didn’t hesitate to say, “Yes.”