I’ve started carrying my own bag with me for when I go shopping. Not because I’m trying to make a huge statement or because I think I’m better than anyone else, but because it feels right when I do it. When the bagger asked me if I wanted paper or plastic I just smiled and handed him my bag saying, “If we could use this, please.”

And I was expecting a weird look but he just smiled and started bagging them in my tote while I paid. It felt nice. The pluses to this are that it’s better for the environment, and also my bag is by far more durable than those shitty plastic ones. I thought that I would run into a problem fitting everything into my bag but it’s pretty huge and I haven’t had an issue so far. So I can’t think of any cons.

I’ve also altered my “365 project” slightly. I’m having a really hard time taking a picture of myself every day. I find it’s boring, limiting, and I just don’t like doing it. My photography skills aren’t benefiting from the project at all, and that’s what I was hoping to increase. So I’m still trying to capture my day into a photograph, but I don’t have to be in it. So if I want to take a picture of my art stuff littered all over the table from working on the comic all day, I don’t have to slide my hand into the picture and ruin it. And since yesterday I tested out one of my studio lights upstairs on Riley and Eric I decided to use a picture of them that I liked to represent my day. I’m already feeling a lot better about the project.

I really do try to be a good person. There are things that I know I don’t want to do, things I don’t want to say, and ultimately things I don’t want to feel. And well, you see, there’s this emotion I’ve been feeling for the last few days that I don’t WANT to feel, but I can’t help myself, not just because I’m far from perfect but because part of me desperately wants to feel that way. Usually I can overcome that part of my brain. But… not this time. Even though I catch myself feeling it and say, “Now, Sara. Stop it. That’s bad.” I don’t. I continue to let myself feel this way. And so I want to share it with you so maybe I can get over it.

In high school I was made fun of a lot because I was always drawing this character from Gundam Wing called “Duo Maxwell”. He was by far my favorite. I loved him and drew him on everything. I carried my sketch book with me everywhere but I even drew him on test papers, my body, and the white boards. People would say, “Oh, she’s pretty.” And I’d get all huffy and say, “She’s a he.” or “That’s a guy.” And usually the response would be, “Oh, but the hair…”

Everyone said, “No guy actually has hair like that.”
“Guys like that don’t exist.”
“Guys don’t have hair like girls.”

During this “phase” in my life, I had two different boyfriends that lasted for two years each. (I always said a four year obsession wasn’t a phase.) Both would always get exasperated whenever I asked them to grow out their hair.

“It won’t look good in real life, Sara.”
“Guys don’t look good with long hair.”
“It will look gross.”
“Guys don’t really do that.”
“Don’t be childish. He’s a cartoon.”

My dad always gave me a really hard time, too.
“You’re setting your self up for disappointment.”
“Are you a closet lesbian?”

Well, now lately I’ve just been feeling this overwhelming sensation… and I can’t help it. Sometimes I just randomly burst out into maniacal laughter and I start screaming,
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I’ve been super, super busy! Those of you that aren’t anime, manga, or comic fans can ignore this post. (Seriously.) Kat and I “officially” re-launched our comic today. Meaning we’re going to regularly update it and it’s found a home. Go there, read it, and if you like it let us know! For those of you that know Kiki, you know she needs a kick in the ASS sometimes to keep going. We’d love to get any feedback. Anyway, we hope you like it! =D

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The way Jei’s sleeping right now is so funny. I would take a picture except that he’s in shorts and if he found out his legs were on the internet for everyone to see he’d probably kill me in my sleep. Today’s Valentine’s day, and Jei and I don’t really celebrate. But for those of you that do, have a great day. I also added this cool new widget on my site that links you to my meebo chat room. Cool huh? I’ve already talked with two people! Check it out if you have some time!.