Moment 186 of the 365 Days Project

Today there was a thunderstorm and I went swimming in the pool after my run. Once I saw the lightning I decided to get out and go home. I don’t know how running became one of my favorite things. I used to hate it. But before I hated it I could run a seven minute mile. Today I was so wrapped up in thinking about other things I didn’t even know I’d passed my two mile mark. (Which never happens; usually I’m counting down the minutes towards the end.) I don’t know why I feel like sharing this with you. I’m getting antsy again. About writing here, I mean.

I miss Diary-X.

I want to write the things I want and post the pictures I want and not feel badly about it. And it’s not even that I have a ton of awful things to say, at all, it’s just… I guess I don’t know how to explain it.

But somehow I know that this ALWAYS happens. If I go somewhere else or find some place new slowly I’ll get to the point where I don’t know who’s reading anymore and I’ll want to do it all over again. I wish I could just get passed that point.

Maybe this time I will.
But I’ve a few more miles to go yet.

Can this year be over already, plz?
Kthanx.