I guess I have something to say but it’s hard to explain, I think. I’ve been pretty happy lately. And usually, when candid photos are taken of me I usually look pensive or lost in thought. Riley took pictures of us at rehearsal yesterday and in almost every shot of me (aside from in character) I am ridiculously happy, and you can tell. It’s nice to see myself so happy again.
(Does that make sense?)
Okay, totally ridiculous moment:
Natalie Portman is dating Devendra Banhart?!!
At first I didn’t know whether to laugh or smile. But I think they’re cute.
I was sort of down today but Jei forced me to get away and go outside for a while to take pictures and have a mini picnic. (We call it “questing”) Huge pictures below. =)
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Today there was a thunderstorm and I went swimming in the pool after my run. Once I saw the lightning I decided to get out and go home. I don’t know how running became one of my favorite things. I used to hate it. But before I hated it I could run a seven minute mile. Today I was so wrapped up in thinking about other things I didn’t even know I’d passed my two mile mark. (Which never happens; usually I’m counting down the minutes towards the end.) I don’t know why I feel like sharing this with you. I’m getting antsy again. About writing here, I mean.
I miss Diary-X.
I want to write the things I want and post the pictures I want and not feel badly about it. And it’s not even that I have a ton of awful things to say, at all, it’s just… I guess I don’t know how to explain it.
But somehow I know that this ALWAYS happens. If I go somewhere else or find some place new slowly I’ll get to the point where I don’t know who’s reading anymore and I’ll want to do it all over again. I wish I could just get passed that point.
Maybe this time I will.
But I’ve a few more miles to go yet.
Can this year be over already, plz?
Kthanx.
