So my stalker that I’ve mentioned a few times has been randomly messaging my boyfriend trying to initiate conversation and it’s making him really uncomfortable? Uh, HELLO. You stalked me? Accused me of stealing your life? Why on earth do you think he’d want to talk to you? So I messaged her this morning:

(8:08:12 AM) trailingtwilight: Respect that you and I will have nothing to do with each other and please stop messaging Jei.
(8:09:04 AM) trailingtwilight: I’m not messaging Sam. I’m not involved in your life at all, so please respect that and do the same.
(8:10:07 AM) trailingtwilight: Especially if four months ago you can say you and Jei were never friends.
(8:10:11 AM) trailingtwilight: Thank you.
(8:10:32 AM) trailingtwilight: Have a nice day.

As I got ready to close the window I realized I suddenly had a warning level of 10. I laughed out loud. She wasn’t away from her computer and unable to respond at all, she just chose to act like a twelve year old. Per usual. But then Tyler told me she was on him all day harping about it. And here I thought we could have a civilized conversation. I guess I forgot who I was dealing with.

I can’t shake the feeling that I’m being watched. I’m afraid that every move I make is being monitored, studied, copied. I was feeling all right for a while there, but I’m afraid that she’s hounding me again. I’m afraid to comment in Ash’s journal because I know she reads the things I say. But I love commenting because I feel it’s supportive. But I am afraid. I don’t want her watching me. I have dreams that she shows up at my door wearing the same clothes, with the same hair, and laughs in this really sick twisted way. I don’t even remember what she looks like. So I’m sorry I haven’t been posting. I’ll try harder.