I am going to try my hardest to pretend like my feelings aren’t hurt, but they are. What did I expect, though? Not much, that’s for sure, because I know they don’t celebrate birthdays and I had to drag everyone to get together for the other birthdays and yet I still managed to wind up disappointed. It was a stupid dinner, is that too much to hope for? I’m trying to rationalize it all and tell myself that we are going to hang out later this evening and we hung out until six in the morning last night- and I keep reminding myself that I am emotional because I’ve been thinking about Ken. We were just talking about this last night, too, about how I’ll smile and nod and say I don’t mind, because polite is all I ever know how to be. I wish I could be honest and say: no, please, and I want you to be there.
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5 burnt buns ready to leave the oven ♥
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Thank you, love. I miss you so much, I know you’re still having a blast so I don’t have to hope. : }
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happy birthday!!!!!
im truely sorry if your referring to me in that post. I guess its just the way things go, but i really dont even feel like im a part of the group at all any more. I want to be there for you, but it always feels like im so unnecessary given the circumstances. Im sorry if ive not been a very good friend. Can I take you out for another birthday dinner tonight?
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I absolutely positively forgot that yesterday was the 2nd. I truly did. But I tried to call and makes wishes and say hi. So instead I shall do dis here. Happy Birthdayers. I miss you.
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Bake me something!
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Happy Birthday, Sarbear. I wanted to wish you one my yesterday so I could be all cool and be wishing a happy birthday from the future, but I was switching host families and there are current complications with my internet. But. I lovies you! And I miss you! I hope you have a good 21st year.