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I am a blithering, helpless mess, and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. Today my grief had taken me by storm, starting with my full frontal confrontation with school vs. work. There’s so much that I want to do, so much I know I can do. I want to go to school full time and work a part time job, instead of going to school and working full time. I want to feel like I’m actually moving TOWARD my dreams, instead of farther away.

I want to act.
This burning desire will not fade, no matter what else comes up. Photography, teaching, language.
I want to act.

And today I’m brave enough to admit that this dream just won’t die.
And today I received words from one source of encouragement in which I cannot take them to be just words. And now I’m a sobbing mess. But I feel good. I’m strong enough today to tell my father that you don’t support me, and you don’t love me, and I’ve had enough. Today I am strong enough to look at my faults and embrace them, willing to change and move forward.

Today I am strong enough.

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Anna spoke on November 26th, 2006 9:42 pm with the words:

You are strong enough every day. You just don’t always realize it.

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That Joey Girl spoke on November 27th, 2006 12:21 am with the words:

Let me tell you what I always used to tell you and still believe…ok so it won’t be exactly but the general idea is there. You have so much more talent then you give yourself credit for. You are still young; you can still do it. You have everything it takes to act and be great and awesome. Apply to Julliard my dear. Do it. Everything that you need after getting accepted and committing to go will come together and you know it. You should stop worrying about paying the bills and making ends meet and you need to start striving to make your dreams come true.

There are a lot of people in your life who are going to stand behind you 100%. Maybe everyone you care about cannot come with you when you go but no matter where they are in reference to where you are; they are a phone call or e-mail away. And they would do anything in their power for you in the matter of a moment.

You can’t have much more support than what you have.

As one very bright gal told me a long time ago; just because certain biological family member don’t nessicarily support you doesn’t mean the more important family member don’t. Look around lady; you’ve got all the love in the world at-cha back.

You know…if you ever need anything…no matter how far we get…

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Barthius spoke on November 27th, 2006 9:15 am with the words:

Have you seen that picture of you? The one where someone is whispering in your ear? I wonder who that could be…

Every day you come up with another amazing idea. If not several of them. Such creativity gives you a great advantage. Though it can also cause trouble in that you will come up with more ideas than you feel like you’ll be able to accomplish. Guess that’s the price you pay for being amazing.

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Skuld spoke on November 27th, 2006 10:05 am with the words:

Oh, Hilde.

; )

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