I am already playing catch-up in a race I did not enter. I am going to fail TNEL. And for once I just don’t care. I’m tired of going and going and going. I just want to take a break from all my projects. But they’re all I have?
A good friend tried to tell me last night that no matter what your situation was, everyone was equally miserable, and that everyone will be miserable no matter what. It was after we watched “Children of Men”. I found myself getting very, very upset. I couldn’t believe that he was comparing someone who is stealing food, trying not to be shot every day to someone living comfortably in the yuppie town in northern Michigan. I understand possibly what point was trying to be made- that no matter where you are and what you’re doing, you will be miserable. (Which by the way I don’t agree with.) But for some reason it really upset me.
I don’t know why I felt like I had to share that, but I did.
“There is a great myth that everyone, amazingly, believes: that everyone else is happy, having fun, living life, and you, all alone, are miserable.
The big secret is that happy people aren’t as happy as they appear. Many happy people are actually covering up their real problems.”
And it’s true to an extent. Ultimately though, you define your life; successes and failures included. Whether you’re being shot at or sitting on a couch, it’s just background noise to a mind-state.
Some un-solicited advice whether you wanted it or not.
-T